>Melissa and I are alike in some ways and in others we are different. We both like a plan and aren’t big on surprises. However, I might take it to the extreme.
Melissa is really chill and laid back. If I just didn’t show up after work one day she would think I was working late (which I never do and would definitely always call) and probably wouldn’t try to call call until it was bed time.
I on the other am not so relaxed. I already worry about Mel and all the changes her body has to go through to create life (BTW – she’s in close to perfect health and yet I worry…). I always like to be ahead of the game, every worst case scenario has already run through my head in most things. Why can’t I learn that the worst case isnt typically the actual case?
I tell you all of that to tell you this. I’m worried about worrying. Will I ever not be in a state of worry again? I’m already thinking and worrying about the birth, I worry about the baby’s safety. I’m worrying about leaving her with a stranger when we have to go back to work. OMG, and when her friends start driving…I worry about her getting in the car with them.
My friend Wes has told me more than once – “Darcie, worrying is like sitting in a rocking chair – lots moving around, but its getting you no where!”…am I capable of not worrying?
For those of you who are “like totally layed back”, I don’t even want to hear it. I don’t get how you can be so chill anymore than you get how I can be such a worrywart!